School ends so the traveling begins

The kids just love playing with my hair.

This place is full of staggering contradictions, which are very difficult to describe.  Some days are filled with so much love and gratitude for the children I teach, I think my heart will burst with joy.  Other days are overshadowed by feelings of frustration and loneliness, when I just want to curl up in a ball and go back to America where things make sense.  Sometimes I revel in the simple freedom of this place, never looking at a clock or trying to keep up in the constant rat race, living moment to moment.  Other times it drives me crazy to never have a schedule and to live on ‘African time” where nothing happens when it's supposed to. 

I showed The Lion King on our last day.. they loved it!

The most beautiful pink flower bush by our house.

Every day I am amazed at the incredible beauty of Tanzania, the rolling hills and green mountains in every direction, trees of every species and flowers in every color, bright blue skies and the most amazing sunsets I’ve ever seen.  And yet, I am saddened that the beauty is set in the background of such poverty, houses made of sticks and mud, streets filled with reeking garbage and waste, starving children in tattered rags.  Then there are moments when I envy the people here, their generosity and hospitality, their willingness to share whatever little they have with others, and their complete faith in God who they trust will never fail them.  I have never met people who are more content and satisfied with their lives, though they are poor in material wealth they are rich in all things spiritual.  But then the next moment I feel deep despair for my neighbors, that they have limited opportunities for education, must walk miles to retrieve water from a hole in the ground, and aren’t able to obtain good and proper health care when sick.  I have thoughts of “Why me?  Why am I so blessed with every convenience and resource I could ever need or want when they can’t even obtain the basic necessities of life?”  When I walk through this village I am overcome with equal amounts of joy and sadness, faith and hopelessness.  This entire trip has and continues to be a roller coaster of extreme emotions, but no matter how uncomfortable or difficult it may be, I am grateful to God for every minute of my life here.

My standard 3 boys playing football (soccer) against the local school.

We scored a goal!!

The biggest obstacle I have had to face so far happened a few weeks ago when many of my students’ parents failed to pay school fees.  Our school costs 450,000 tsh a year, or about $280, which pays for the teachers’ salaries, supplies, and two meals a day.  Because we are non-profit, every cent we make is put back into the school and usually we spend more than we take in.  Now $280 doesn’t sound like much to us, I spend that much on food shopping in a month back home, but it’s an astronomical amount to the majority of villagers here.  Most of them live on less than $2 a day so this is a huge struggle for them.  The government schools are much cheaper but, as I’ve already described, the condition of the government schools here in Tanzania is awful- not enough teachers, not enough supplies, not enough classrooms.. the other school nearby has two teachers for upwards of 500 children. You can imagine how much learning is going on there.  So parents are put in the impossible position of either sending their kids to a good school or continue providing for their families.  But since our school cannot function without school fees, when parents don’t pay we have to send the children home.   This was the most difficult thing I have done here.  To take twenty of my kids out of class and tell them they had to go home, even though it isn’t their fault their parents can’t pay.. the looks on their faces broke my heart. When they started crying, I barely held myself together.  I just felt so angry that I was put in that position.  That the system is so broken here, these beautiful and incredibly smart children have to miss out on their only chance for a decent education when they did nothing wrong.

My groupies :)

Last day of school stickers.

It just doesn't seem fair.  In America, even if you are the poorest of poor, you can still get a good education for free.  In Tanzania, only 1% of children actually finish school and make it to college, there are just too many hurdles that get in the way.  Somehow though, most of our student's parents eventually come up with the money, they borrow or get another job, they are desperate to keep their kids in school.  But a few came to me and said they simply could not afford to pay, or they would not be able to buy food for their families.. so what could I do?  I agreed to help, I just couldn’t keep my students out of school.  Sometimes I just feel so helpless here, like no matter what I do I’ll never be able to do enough. People will still die from preventable diseases and kids will still go without food and education.  I try to stay positive and focus on the fact that we are making a difference for the 100 children at St. Mary’s and THEY will be able to make a bigger difference here than I ever could.  So that is the motivating force that keeps me moving forward!

End of school dance party.

Playing their first game of pinata.. with water balloons.

On a more positive note, we gave our end of the year tests and the students did great! 

 Our average English and Math scores for every class was between an 85-88% which is incredible.  I just have to brag on these kids for a minute, the average scores in every other school I know of is a 30-40% and that is considered passing.  But because we raised the bar so high and made a 70% the passing grade, these kids have worked hard and now have the highest test scores of any other school around here!  We even found out that two of our students who left to go to other schools in bigger towns became number one in their classes. So we are definitely doing something right here!  The last day of school our students sang and danced for the School of Nursing graduation, they were the only ones who performed in English and everyone was super impressed.  They were seriously so cute and confident, they amaze me every day.  I’m going to miss them now that school is over…. But I am also thankful for a six week break!  Teaching is exhausting.

Performing at the SONAB graduation.

Me and Ima, my little Massai warrior.

Another exciting thing that happened this week,  one of my students, Ima, who is a Massai, invited me and four of my other students to a wedding celebration in Ifunde, where the Massai tribe live.  We had to walk really  far through the literal African bush through the rain to get there, but it was worth it.  I am amazed by the Massai tribe, they have kept their cultural customs for hundreds of years now and don’t see any need to conform to society.  They dress in patterned linens that wrap around their bodies, the women wear the most beautiful extravagant jewelry from their stretched earlobes, and the men carry walking sticks with machetes hung on their waists. 

They hardly use any technology, with the exception of the occasional cell phone, and their houses are made of mud and manure.  They live far away from everyone else, with lots of land to herd their cows and raise their many children.  There are no shops, no electricity, no machines, and no direct access to water. I got to go inside Ima’s house and as I looked around, I couldn’t fathom living that way, and choosing to do so. But I guess I am just a spoiled American brat.  We had a great time though, listened to some local music and saw some dancing (the Massai men like to jump high with their sticks), played with a few babies.  It was one of those very surreal moments when I was like “Am I dreaming I am in National Geographic right now?”.  I just tried to soak it all in, because I know these experiences only happen once in a lifetime.

Ima and his family in Ifunde.

Well in a couple days, me and Scott are leaving for our around the world vacation!  About time too, we are both getting pretty burnt out- the heat and mosquitoes are unbearable and we are constantly running out of water and electricity.  We leave for Paris on Wednesday and will spend four days there (so look for my selfie in front of the Eiffel Tower), then we will head to London for two weeks (for a British Christmas to rival that of Harry Potter’s), and then a week in Bangkok (to celebrate an exciting New Years Eve that will hopefully not end up like the Hangover..).  Although I love Berega, a few weeks of normal food and Western comforts could be just what I need to rejuvenate my spirit so I can return to Africa in January refreshed and ready to work. 

That’s all for now, please consider donating to my page or the Hands4Afridca website to help us build a new school!!  And prayers are appreciated for safe travels.. Happy Holidays!

All of St. Mary's school!

We need a school!

Well ever since the last entry, things have gone surprisingly well.  Sure, the electricity has been going out almost every day, in the evenings there is always a massive swarm of mosquitoes circling my head, and it’s getting so hot here I sweat through my sheets at night, but I have just been so happy to get into a solid rhythm with my students at school.  Those children are amazing.  They fill my heart with more joy and purpose than I have ever known, and I thank God every day for the opportunity to work with them.  Of course they are kids and can be difficult, they steal each other’s pencils or talk loudly while I am teaching, and then I have to scold them (which is really hard for me to to do, I'm still learning).  But the moment one of them looks up at me and smiles or laughs, the room suddenly lights up and all is well.  It’s truly a blessing. 

They just LOVE pictures!

Anyway, Teacher Liz needed to leave for some R&R so she went to Cambodia for three months and left me in charge.  On the one hand, I love to be in charge because most of you know I like to control!!  But on the other, this has left me with a lot of responsibility.  All the teachers come to me for questions, the parents want to talk to me about their children, and I am expected to deal with many of the disciplinary issues.  I’m also making and correcting all of the end of the year exams and am doing most of the grading.  But this is great practice I suppose, for future years of accountability as a doctor.  I think you all must be dying to know how a typical day looks like for me here, so I am going to indulge you:

My standard 1 kids making words out of letter tiles.

I wake up every day around 7 am to the loudest rooster crow I've ever heard, it’s literally like the dang bird is right next to me in bed.  The roosters, chickens, and cows are always roaming around our yard looking for scraps and are completely oblivious to my need for extra sleep.  So I get up and start boiling water for my coffee and oatmeal, then spend time in meditation and prayer.  This has become significantly more important in my daily routine, since it has proven to be one of my only comforts and sources of serenity.  I would not be surviving here if it weren't for this conscious contact with God every day.  He provides me with the hope and strength to stay in His will and to keep doing the next right thing, no matter how hard that may be.

Around 8:15, I leave my house to walk the ¼ mile to school.  On the way of course, I get pointed and stared at, while hearing shrill little voices scream“mzungu!”.  I am pretty sure this is the first word the village children learn.  At first, I thought it was cute but lately, it has gotten on my nerves.  Would you people please stop calling me a rich white foreigner every time I leave my house!?  Gheesh.  Once I get to school though, I hear the sweetest sound. All my students see me through the window and yell “teachaa Chaareen, teachaa Chaareen!” (the l’s and r’s are really hard for them to pronounce).  Then without fail, several children run out of the school to hug me and take my bag to carry.  It’s my favorite part of the day.

Standard 3 doing long division on the board.

My first class is English and Math for Standard 1 (equivalent to first grade), this class can be difficult because many of the children are just beginning to learn English so there is a definite language barrier.  But we practice reading and writing, grammar and spelling, addition and math, and problem solving.  The more often we do the problems, the better they get, and the more they hear my English, the better they learn it.  The next class is English and Math for Standard 3 and this is my fun class.  These students have been learning English for 4 years now and are almost fluent.  I don’t have to slow down to speak, they just get it and continually ask questions. They love to learn, they want to know about everything, and they are so incredibly smart.  Not to mention they are the best behaved class because they are more mature than the others, most of them are 10-14 years of age.  (Many didn't get the chance to go to school before or had to be held back because they didn't learn enough in other schools.) I can leave them alone for an hour to do long division by themselves and when I come back they are all finished and reading books quietly.  Their writing is getting so good too, they are beginning to get more creative and insightful.  It is so great to watch them grow and learn.  I should mention that for most of my students, English is their third language.  First they learn Kaguru, their tribal language, then Swahili, the national language, and then English; one of my kids is even in the Masaai tribe so English is his fourth language!  And he is only 13, such a smart kid.  So the fact that these kids are reading and writing English pretty efficiently after having only been learning it for a couple years is amazing. 

Playing Simon Says with Standard 2, really great for English listening skills and they have so much fun.

After Standard 3 is an hour for lunch.  On Mondays, I use my lunch hour to go to the market to buy fruits and vegetables for the week.  On Tuesdays and Thursdays, I use that time to teach English at the Bible College.  Next door to our school is a small college, only about 20 students, who are learning the ins and outs of Christian theology so that they can go on to be pastors in the community.  I was asked if I would help teach English and I said yes.  English is so useful in this country because it links these people to the rest of the world and improves their chances at gaining employment.  I really like teaching the bible students, not just because they are willing to learn but because they are adults.  I never have to scold or yell at them to be quiet, they are always respectful and they always listen.  But that doesn't leave me any time for lunch so I just grab a handful of peanuts and keep going.  I like my days to be busy though!

The school sink.  You do not want to see (or smell) the toilet.

When lunch time is over, I have Standard 2 which is my in between class.  They are not as difficult as Standard 1 because they know more English, but they are still grappling with several important concepts.  They are great to work with though because almost every day I see them making the connections in their school work. They are starting to really figure out the reading, writing, and math and when they do, their faces light up. All my students are wonderful in that way, they work really hard day after day and when they finally understand it, they are so excited.  Each one of them will get the biggest smiles on their faces, they will pump their fists up into the air and jump up and down, so happy with their accomplishment.  It’s the sweetest thing and makes a lot of the frustration in teaching the material disappear, because they make it worthwhile.

Our courtyard during play time.  They are literally playing with dirt and sticks.. and are happy about it!  I don't think American kids would feel the same way.

Dance partayyyy!!

After school, I have an hour to myself to clean or exercise, and then some of my students come to my house for an after school class.  These are the kids whose reading and math skills need serious work so I give them extra individual attention in those areas.  We work for an hour and then I let them have fun for 30 minutes, they color or play with legos and cards.  And almost inevitably, they ask if I will turn on some music so they can dance.  Now let me tell you, there is just nothing like having ten of these sweet Tanzanian children bouncing around you, shaking their body parts, and laughing at the top of their lungs.  I have had some rough days here, but by the end of the dance session with my students I am filled with more love for those kids than I can explain.  It makes me truly appreciate the place I am in and the work I am doing.

When my house is child-free again, me and Scott work together to make dinner, usually rice and beans or soup, and then we can finally relax and watch a movie.   By this time I am filthy, sweaty, and absolutely exhausted, but I am also more at peace than I've ever been in my entire life.  God is using me in ways than I never could have imagined and I am so grateful for that.

Our gathering of die hard fans.

On the weekends we usually relax, unless we go to Morogoro for supplies.  I grade or make tests, clean the house, and take walks around the village. This is always an adventure because since we are the only white people here, kids are fascinated by us (well everyone is).  They just laugh and stare at us, follow us around, and yell at us in Swahili.  I am able to speak to them in the little Swahili I know and they just love it.  These kids are worse off than mine, their clothes are tattered, they never have shoes on, and they are covered in mud.  But they are so full of joy and laughter, and all they want is to play and get a little attention.  By the end of our walk, I have five of them clinging to each of my hands and my heart just melts. I wish that I could put every single one of them in St. Mary’s School, because the majority of those children will never get a decent, or even a basic, education.  But you can’t save them all I suppose.  All I can do is hug them and smile, and show each one of them that they are special.

Now I must mention, our school is SMALL and falling apart. Our classrooms are overcrowded which makes it unbearably hot and uncomfortable, making mine and the students' jobs way more difficult.  It also keeps us from taking in any more students because we simply don’t have enough room.  This is sad because we really want to expand and give more children the opportunity to attend our school.

Also, Standard 3 will be moving to

We are at maximum capacity!

Standard 4 in January (the first Standard 4 we have ever had) and we have nowhere to put them.  We have had to ask the church if we can have a class in one of their rooms, which is inconvenient because the kids and the teachers will have to walk back and forth from the school to the church every day.  Scott and his team are working hard to start the building of a new school (which will have 14 classrooms, a library, and maybe even electricity!).  We already have the land and due to a few donations, workers have leveled the area the school will be.  To continue, we need more funds.. and that’s where you come in!  We would be well on our way if everyone who read this blog donated $20.  Please think about giving to this wonderful cause.  You would be affording hundreds of beautiful children the chance at a good education and a better life.  Without a new school, we cannot hope to continue our mission and I am positive, it’s God’s will for us to continue.  With the holiday season coming up, I know everyone is looking for a place to give (wink, wink).  Well here it is!  Please go to the Hands4Africa website on the right hand side of this page (if you want a tax receipt) or click on the Gofundme link (if you don't care about a receipt) and donate.  Tell everyone you know about this effort, we need a school!!!  Now please!!  Get on it people!  Ok thanks for listening to my rant.  To close, I would like to quote my favorite pastor Andy Stanley- “You may miss money you spend on yourself, but you’ll never miss money you give away”.  Thank you for considering us, God bless you.

The land the new St. Mary's school will be built on hopefully.

Plight of the visa

The view of Mt. Uluguru from the bottom

Most of the time, I am full of awe at the wonder and beauty of this country.  Other times, I am completely disgusted and saddened by its condition.  The past week has been a whirl wind.  So I’ll start with the good:  last weekend Scott and I climbed Mt. Uluguru with two German girls who are volunteering at the orphanage.  This amazing mountain overlooks the town of Morogoro and is a treasure chest of bio-diversity- hundreds of species of flowers, plants, fruits, and butterflies live there, and many of them cannot be found anywhere else in the world.  So needless to say, it’s pretty awesome.  Scott has been dying to climb this mountain ever since we were in Arusha last year and we finally got our chance. 

Just one of the many beautiful plants we saw.

Sophie and Miriam knew a guy who would take us up the mountain for free and since it was only a 6 hour hike, we figured we could do it all in one day.  Now, I am not a mountain climber (and should never become one) so the trek was a bit much for me.  Uluguru is incredibly steep and rocky, not to mention I haven’t been to the gym in three months so am pretty out of shape.  I was huffing and puffing all the way up, Scott even had to get behind me at one point and literally push me so I would continue on.  It was rough to say the least.

This view made every painful moment worthwhile!

But as hard as the hike was, I will say it was TOTALLY worth it.  The views were breath taking, we saw the most stunning plants and flowers, and I felt really accomplished when we made it to the top (well it was almost the top, to go all the way we would have had to rock climb up a vertical cliff and that was not gonna happen for me).  But I was pretty excited that my first mountain climbing experience was on one of the most beautiful and flourishing mountains in Africa.  That is, until Scott and I got lost on the way down, took the wrong trail, and almost ended up dangling off a cliff.  Thank goodness two little boys saw us and pointed us in the right direction so we could finally make it back down the mountain.  We sure did make it interesting!

What a public toilet (or choo)  looks like in Tanzania...

Now to the bad part of last week:  our status became illegal.  When we landed in Tanzania, they gave us a 90 day visa that was supposed to last until our work permit was approved.  Well, we realized a little too late that we were on the last day of our visas and had to rush to Morogoro to the office of immigration to get an extension.  Everyone was saying it would be no problem, they would just give us a stamp and we would continue with the work we were doing.  But of course, nothing in Tanzania is ever that easy.  The officer at the department of immigration saw us as cash cows and wouldn't give us a visa extension unless we paid him $400.  Now this is not the first time I’ve seen corruption and bribery around here.  Twice, we have been riding in cars that got pulled over by the police (or flagged down because police stand on the side of the road) who then took our drivers' licenses and refused to let us go until we paid them off, even when the driver didn’t do anything wrong.  I also found out someone I know had his teaching degree stolen and duplicated, and now he cannot get a job because the thief is using his credentials- and most people here think this is a sufficient way to find employment.  And then there is this guy, a supposed trusted government official, trying to steal from us when we are workijng toward the betterment of this country.  It was so frustrating and disheartening.  Of course, we did not have that kind of money, and honestly did not want to give in to his bribe, so our only choice was to leave Tanzania.  Without a change of clothes, deodorant, or toothbrushes, we were in for a rough couple of days. 

A nice welcome into a new country.

We hopped on a bus to Malawi the next morning and for the next ten excruciatingly painful hours me and Scott feared for our lives.  For some reason, people like to drive like maniacs here.  Our bus driver, who had 100 people, including children, in his care, drove 90 miles an hour on the worst roads I’ve ever seen.  We literally came within inches of slamming head on into a petrol truck because he did not feel like checking if someone was coming before he tried passing the car in front of us.  We went so fast around corners that luggage and people were flying out into the aisle.  The bus ended up getting pulled over because the driver was acting like evil canevil, and a cop came on the bus to check everyone’s passports.  My heart started thundering like crazy because a.) we were one day over our visas and b.) we were headed to Malawi to renew it which is technically not allowed.  But the man looked at my passport, asked why I was going to Malawi, and I said we were going for vacation, just to travel.  He looked at me real hard, I said a silent prayer, and then he just walked away.  I was so relieved.  We have already seen what corrupt officials do here, I did not want to see what would happen if they caught two illegal white people.  So we made it to the border safe but of course, it was closed so we had to stay in one of the most disease infested motel rooms for the night.  I’m sure I got TB just by sitting on the makeshift bed.  But thank goodness, we were so exhausted we didn’t notice the hundreds of biting mosquitoes or the smell of manure coming from the choo.

A dala dala.. Personal space is obviously not an option here.

In the morning, we met up with one of the girls I met on the bus, a really nice lady who spoke good English, and she agreed to help us.  We crossed the border, got our Malawi visas, and then we decided to stay a few hours.. I mean, we had just traveled two days to get to Malawi, it would be nice to at least see some of the country.  We found out that Lake Malawi was only 30 km away so we grabbed a dala dala (super packed and uncomfortable) to get to the lake, and I am so glad we did. 

You can't tell, but we both smell really bad right here.

It was just as beautiful as any beach we’ve ever been to… there was pretty white sand and clear blue water, but you could still tell it was Africa because there were people bathing and washing their clothes in the fresh water.  Me and Scott had a few drinks in the sun, and walked along the beach, finally getting a moment to relax.  We had a wonderful time.  So after our bask in the sun, we went back to the border, got across to the Tanzanian side with a new 90 day visa, and made our way to a hotel to wait until our next 5 am bus.  Another unbearable 10 hour bus ride back to Morogoro, a 3 hour cramped trip in a Noah, and we finally made it back to Berega.  I have never been so happy to see our house!!  Five days of unexpected traveling, fear of immigration, dreadful buses, and the same pair of clothes (I have never been so filthy before), and we were so glad to settle back in to the village. 

Not a bad place to run away to though.

Now you would think that since we had been through a lot the past week, we would finally catch a break.   But unfortunately for us, that was not the case.  Both me and Scott were woken up at 3 in the morning, overcome with the worst bouts of vomiting and diarrhea.  For the next 24 hours, we were violently ill, fighting over the toilet, and unable to keep anything down.  It was absolutely disgusting. Thank goodness it passed so we could both go back to work the next day, I did not want to miss another day with my kids.  This week has been wonderful though, besides a little bit of exhaustion and dehydration, mostly because I am so filled with gratitude- gratitude for a feeling of safety and for my renewed health.  Plus, I am so thankful for Scott because I don't think I could have made it through all that chaos alone. And hey, as bad as things seemed at times, we did have a pretty awesome adventure!  Until next time, tutuonana!

Let the teaching begin!

Look how peaceful he is...

So things have gotten a little bit more exciting around here.  The weekend before school started, me, Scott, Laura, Sarah, and Liz went on another safari since it was Sarah's birthday and Laura had never been on one.  Two safaris in two months… I really do love Africa!  And this time was amazing; along with hundreds of elephants, giraffes, and zebras, we saw a male lion basking in the sun.  Our driver Abdallah actually drove so close to him, we could have literally reached out and touched him!  He was monstrous but really beautiful.. we were hoping to see him chase after an animal and tear it limb from limb with his razor sharp teeth, but no such luck.  He just yawned and continued sleeping, paying us no attention.  It was still really cool though.

Me and Scott by the hippo pool.

A little family of elephants!

After a full day of searching for and staring at all the incredible animals, we stayed the night at a nice hotel in Morogoro (the town two hours from the village where we go to get supplies).  We were so thankful to take a long, nice hot shower and to eat a delicious meal that we didn’t have to cook.  I also got my first package since being here!  I was so excited! Sue D. sent me so many wonderful things, including school supplies, shoes for the kids and for me, and some spiritual literature I really needed.  Thanks Sue!!  I’m so grateful to have wonderful friends like you in my life who support me and the work I am doing here.  Keep those packages coming!  It’s really nice to have something to look forward to.  If you do send something, be sure to write ‘donations’ on the box so the Tanzanian government doesn’t keep the contents for themselves… I have heard they do that..  

Farida and Joan say hello and thank you for the shoes Sue D.!  We love you!

A couple of the village kids.  See the difference?

Most of you know I am working here as a teacher in a private school that was started by a wonderful non-profit, Hands4Africa.  I want to explain a bit about the school system here in Tanzania.  It sucks.  The government schools are abysmal, the classes are full of about 100 children because there aren’t enough teachers, the teachers that are there hardly show up because there is no accountability, and if the teachers do make the children work its to memorize their books- there is no creative thinking whatsoever.  Did I mention they also beat the children?  The whole system is a failure.  Only about 60% of children have the option to even start school because they either cannot afford it or there is not a school anywhere near them.  The students who do get to start school hardly ever get to finish.  Primary school is Standards 1-7, after standard 7 (about 7^th grade) the students must take a test to get into secondary school (equivalent to high school).  After secondary school, you take a test to enter into a university. The passing rate is 40%, and more than half of all students cannot pass to get into secondary school and less than 1% actually go on to university!  With the majority of children forced to leave school at the age of 12, they must settle for a village job (where they make about $2 a day) and submit to a life of poverty.  Most young boys join workers at the farm, growing maize or tending to cows, while the girls must become house servants.  They cook and clean and take care of children for another family.. it also means the man of the house they are working for gets to use her for anything he wants, including sex.  No wonder there are so many young teenage girls who are HIV positive and pregnant. Without an education, there are no viable options for these children. So good schools are absolutely essential!!   With a good education and the ability to speak English, students are ten times more likely to go to a university and get a meaningful, well paying job.  If they get a good job, they can pay for basic necessities like clean water and health care.  Then maybe, they will wait to start a family until they can afford it (instead of continuing to have babies that they can’t feed).  And when the time comes and they do have children, they will be able to send them to a good school too so then their child can have a meaningful life. These students could be part of the agent of change for this place and it all starts with an opportunity for a good education.  That is what we are doing here.  We may not change all of the world, but we could change the world for the children at our school.

The kids trying to take our test.. if you can't tell they don't have a clue.

To see how our school measured up to the government schools, me and Liz held an experiment a couple weeks ago.  We had a few of our students gather ten of the kids who go to a normal village school, we promised them cookies so it was easy to find kids to participate.  First of all, you can just tell the difference between our kids and them.  Our kids are decently clean, well behaved, and respectful.  The village kids are filthy, don’t wear any shoes, push each other around, and act like hoodlums.  We gave them each a test that our students had taken at the end of the school year in June (on which we had an average of 75%) to see how they did compared to us.  It was a massacre.  Most of the children could not even spell their own names, they couldn’t count to ten, none of them knew any English…and they just stared at the test, completely unable to even answer one question.  We felt it was mean to continue so we took the tests away and gave them their cookies, knowing that those kids were doomed.  And there wasn't a thing we could do about it.  For the first time, I realized the gravity of the work I am here to do and how important our school is. 

My first science quiz... the average was an 80%

My students taking the quiz.

Well school finally started a few weeks ago and besides getting disgustingly sick for two days during the second week, everything has been going great.  I finally have a set schedule again- those of you who know me know I don’t do well with lots of idle time!   Not to mention, I absolutely love my job.  It is truly the most rewarding, incredible feeling I have ever had to teach these children, I feel like I was meant to be here all my life.  Their love, their joy, their willingness to learn... lifts my heart in ways I have never experienced.  Plus it’s really fun!!  They love learning, and I love teaching!  I have mostly been teaching English and Science.  We talk about why cleaning our bodies is important, what germs are, what diseases are caused by, why we brush our teeth, why we clean our foods before we eat them, why we boil water before we drink it… its all related to science, but it’s also really necessary for the way they live here.  Most people don’t know why when they drink the river water, they get sick with typhoid.  Or why their teeth are black and broken by the age of 12.  Or how to prevent disease- many people believe only a witch doctor can cure them.
As much as I love teaching them these things, it can be really hard too because all the knowledge in the world still can’t change their current circumstances.  I talk about why it’s important to drink clean water but many of my students will never have access to it.  There aren’t any dentists here so even if they brush their teeth, cavities can still grow and decay the teeth til there isn't anything left.  And though they may learn about diseases, there is such a lack of medicine and health care that even when they do get sick they may not survive.  I try not to think too much about these things because it makes me feel so sad and hopeless...  but all I can do is pass on the knowledge I have and do the best I am capable of, hoping and praying that it will somehow make a difference.  Also I have to keep in mind that it’s not up to me to save these children, that is God’s job.  I am just His instrument, trying to obey His will for my life. But that does not mean it's always easy.

It’s difficult to talk about some of these things, and it may seem that I am being harsh or bleak.  But it doesn’t do any good to hide the truth of what is going on over here and awareness is the first step in making a change.  There are many wonderful, beautiful things about this country- the people, the culture, the language.  But there is definitely a lot of progress that needs to be made.  And though it is hard living without many of the comforts I am used to, the children make it all worthwhile.  I am so grateful to have this opportunity and to do something for once that is not all about me.  God has truly blessed my life.  And I hope God blesses all of you!  Take care.

At the end of each day, the children pray together out loud.  Cutest.  Thing.  Ever.

P.S.  I read all the highlights from the Georgia/Clemson game and all I have to say is... GO DAWGS!!!!

A house wife from the 1800's

Are you impressed yet??

Well hello again, since my last blog post I have been living in Berega, getting used to village life, but because school doesn’t start until Monday I have not had much to do.  Hence, the title of this post.  This has pretty much been my every day life:  cooking, cleaning, and…well that’s about it.  Every week on Monday, I go to the market to buy fresh fruits, vegetables, and spices for our home.  Then I usually stop by a neighbor’s house to pick up some freshly made bread, cooked right over an open fire.  I then go home, do the dishes from last night’s dinner, use the water from the dishes to wipe off all the kitchen and bathroom surfaces, sweep the entire house, and then use the dishwater again to mop (conservation of water is really important!).  The first two weeks I even washed our own clothes by hand just to see if I could do it… never again!  Rubbing the clothes made my hands so raw and trying to get the water and soap out of the clothes took all day, it was the hardest work I have ever done.  So now we are paying a girl to wash our clothes.  I’ve definitely taken having a washer and dryer for granted!  Every night I cook dinner from scratch using fresh ingredients, and for those of you who know me as the queen of frozen meals, this should be pretty surprising.  I have been able to make homemade spaghetti (after lots of peeling, cutting, and smashing of tomatoes), stews from scratch using lots of veggies and potatoes, fried eggplant parmesan, and my favorite rice and beans (although it does take an hour to pick out all the sticks and stones..);  I have also made my own French bread (see pictures), banana bread, brownies, and chocolate cake.  I hope these things are healthier for us since we don’t use anything that is pre-packaged or canned.. but even if they aren’t we can’t afford to be picky! There is a lot of repetition here since food is so limited. Scott helps some in the kitchen, but mostly with the meat.  We eat a lot of goat and it’s as fresh as meat can be… straight from an animal that was killed that day or the day before.  Preparing the meat takes forever because all the bone and connective tissue has to be cut out, but after its been marinated and sautéed it it is actually really tasty.  So I am positive by the end of this year we will both have mastered the art of preparing and cooking our own meals from the simplest of ingredients.  Maybe I'll even get rid of my microwave!  (Just kidding...)  

Besides being a housewife, I have been able to do a few other things in the village.  I talked to some people at the hospital about doing alcohol abuse education and they asked me to give a presentation on it for all the doctors, nurses, and students.  So I made a powerpoint on what alcoholism is, and what negative physical, emotional, and circumstantial consequences can occur.  I talked about the difference between a normal drinker, a hard drinker, and an alcoholic, and what the symptoms are of each one.  Then I talked about AA and how it has been able to help thousands of people get sober.  When it was over, you should have seen their faces…. People were shocked that I would even discuss such an issue.  The thing you should know about Tanzanians is that no one really talks about anything.  They have this idea that if everything looks good on the outside, everything is good- so people don’t ever mention things like alcoholism, unprotected sex, or HIV. Everyone knows it happens but no one acknowledges it, either because they are too afraid or too uneducated to know anything about it.  Especially in the villages where there aren’t TVs, newspapers, radios, or billboards, people don’t get exposed to really important sociological issues so it just keeps snow balling until it becomes a huge problem.  Anyway, the people who watched my presentation were pretty surprised by the information but the good thing is that they also had several questions. I don’t think anyone has ever approached the subject of alcoholism before so they all wanted to know more about it.  My goal is to start an informational session once a week to discuss important problems in this area, alcohol abuse being one of them.  If enough people show interest, I want to start an AA meeting.  Just like everything else here, it may or may not work and it may not produce anything substantial, but if a seed is planted for one person who may be able to get help in the future then it will be totally worth it.  Also, the great thing about educating the medical staff is that they will hopefully be able to recognize signs of alcohol abuse in their patients and talk to them about it.  Oh well, we will see what happens and I’ll keep you updated! 

I did also want to mention that before I went on vacation, I noticed that the children’s ward had a very poor scale made of a rucksack and a hook attached to a dial- very inaccurate and not effective for weighing children who are unconscious.  One of the doctors said they needed another one so while I was in Arusha, I bought a manual scale that children can lie on that gives really good readings and is useful for children who are not awake.  The weight of a sick child is very important so this is a significant contribution to the hospital.  I was able to pay for this scale because of the wonderful Camille Morgan!  Because of your generous donation Camille, these children will get weighed properly and be given the right amount of medication or nutrition in order to nurse them back to health.  You have no idea how much this means to the people of Berega, so we all say thank you very much.

The scale they used to weigh babies in

The new scale donated by Camille

I did say I would talk about the orphanage here so this would be a good time.   We went to a fundraiser at the orphanage last week and that was really good.

The fundraiser.. Six.. hours... long!

The orphanage is run by Mama Ute, a German lady who has been here for 14 years so she really knows what she is doing by now.  This orphanage is not like the one I was at in Arusha where kids just live by themselves with hardly any supervision or care.  The one here in Berega is really unique because it takes children whose mothers have died, and raises them for the first two years of their lives.  After this time, a relative like a sister or aunt or grandmother takes the child home, that way the child does not permanently stay at the orphanage (in the big cities, children just roam the streets and no one knows who they belong to, but in small villages, it is easier to know who the child is and someone usually steps up to take responsibility).  The reason for taking care of them the first two years is because without proper formula or care after birth, the child will likely die without the mother.  So the workers at the orphanage feed the babies, change their diapers, and care for them until they are at the right age to eat solid food and go home with their relatives.  It’s a really good system and the children are pretty well taken care of, but I really enjoy going and playing with all the sweet babies.  They were short on clothes and shoes when I got here so I was also really glad to get to donate many of the items I brought from America (thank you so much to everyone who donated, especially Aunt Kim and Nancy!  Now the kids will get to brush their teeth everyday :)).

Maranda hard at work in his Sesame Street book

Another productive thing I have been doing with my time is teaching English to a very nice man named Maranda.  Me and Scott met him at the beginning of our trip and have gotten quite close to him.  He expressed a great interest in learning English and eventually going to America to make money for his family.  So for the last three weeks I have been teaching him English, starting from the very beginning.. This has been difficult because when you have been speaking a language so long, you don’t realize how the little things add up to the big things.  Like the ABC’s, I learned that so long ago I forget its importance, but Maranda is having the hardest time learning each letter and the sounds that go with it.  It can be frustrating but it is really good practice for teaching the kids.  He is slowly getting better and starting to piece words together, I really hope over the course of this next year he will be speaking in full sentences.  This has been nice too because he has helped me with my Swahili and I am almost able to have a whole conversation with him now!  More on my developing Swahili later.

Other than that, me and Liz (the other American teacher at St. Mary's) have been talking about strategies for the school, what classes we are teaching, and ways of helping the children learn.  Unfortunately, two teachers have quit (one of them waited until 5 pm the night before school started to tell anyone she was not going to return).  This was so frustrating because now we are even more short staffed. There is absolutely no accountability for workers here in Tanzania, they show up when they feel like it and stay home when they don't.  If they do show up, they may work or they may talk on their phone outside the classroom letting the students run wild.  If they get a new job, they don't feel there is any reason to give notice. And when they do teach, they teach the wrong information because they haven't had much schooling themselves!  This is probably a big reason why the educational system here is such a failure, it is impossible to find teachers who are well educated who will actually teach the children, so they end up getting a crappy education and then can't get into secondary school (even though the passing grade is 40%), and with no education beyond the 7th grade there is little chance of them ever finding a decent job... and the cycle of poverty continues.  But I guess that's the reason St. Mary's was started in the first place and the reason I am here in Berega!  We hope to give these kids a shot at healthy, meaningful lives... and the way you do that is through education.

Well that’s about all that has been happening around here, things are getting more exciting now that school is about to start..  I have never been more ready to be back to work!  Hope everyone is doing well, I miss you all!  Can’t wait to tell you about all my precious students!

A few of the students I will be teaching!

The good and the bad of vacation

Yay!  Electricity and internet access!  We have been out of power all week and it has been so frustrating.  I swear, when I get back to the states I will never take reliable Internet for granted again.  On the one hand, its nice to be somewhat disconnected from social media.. no constant checking of texts, facebook notifications, email, etc.  Its kind of freeing to not be so dependent on technology, and it allows me to be fully engaged in the every day life I am experiencing, rather than constantly having my face buried in an iphone or laptop.  On the other hand, its REALLY hard to get used to the lack of connectivity.  If I want to call my mom or friend, there is no internet to call with.  If my phone dies and I want to listen to music, the power goes down and I can’t charge anything.  If I want to clean or cook past 6:30, there are no lights so I just have to go to bed.  It has taken me three days alone to upload this blog post... But I guess that is life in rural Africa.  Its an adventure, that’s for sure!

Our beautiful resort

Ok rant over, I am just thankful I am able to update everyone on what has been going on lately.  As most of you know, I will be teaching at the private school here in Berega (i.e. the only non-government school, and therefore the only acceptable one) but the children go on summer break from July 1 til the middle of August, so me and Scott took this opportunity to travel for a bit.  We first went to Zanzibar, a small island off the coast of Tanzania, and it was INCREDIBLE!  After months of planning for my year in Africa, stressing about money, traveling nonstop, and adjusting to life in Tanzania, this was a very welcomed vacation.  The water in the Indian ocean is the clearest blue I’ve ever seen, the sand was so soft, the ocean breeze wonderfully relaxing, not to mention the food was delicious.... we had legit homemade Italian pizza almost every day. It was true paradise.  I spent my 26^th birthday on the island (yikes!) and for the best birthday gift ever, Scott and I went swimming with dolphins at the southernmost tip of Zanzibar.  These were wild, bottle nosed dolphins and they were everywhere, swimming and dancing and playing with their young.  We got so close to them we could reach out and touch them!  It was seriously a dream come true, so amazing.

Me and Scott standing in the middle of the ocean at low tide

The water at high tide

Full moon at sunset!

We also went on a spice tour; for those who don’t know Zanzibar is a huge hub for naturally grown spices.  We saw where they grow cinnamon, vanilla, cardamom, lemon grass, and lots more.  It was really neat and we got to buy a ton of spices for home, which should hopefully add some flavor to our standard meal of rice and beans.  Lastly, we visited Stonetown which is a very historic and beautiful town right near the ferry port.  Overall, we had a blast in Zanzibar and cannot wait to go back!

Me drinking from the biggest coconut ever

He's cutting cinnamon bark off this tree,
it smelled so good!

Scott and I were made King and Queen of the forest,
complete with crowns made out of banana tree leaves

Home of Freddie Mercury, y'all!

Unfortunately, this is one reason why Zanzinbar is historic

Market in Stone Town

I’m going to add a side note here to talk about the transportation in Africa.  Up until our vacation, we had been getting around by the Hands4Africa driver, Abdallah, who is wonderful.  He took us to Dar Es Salaam, where we flew to Zanzibar (only a 20 minute flight).  On the way back, however, we took a ferry… the cheaper way to go and for good reason.  It. Was. Awful. The boat was going so fast it literally flew over waves and rocked so hard, people were falling out of their seats.  I ended up getting so sick I blacked out and someone nearly carried me to the back of the boat to throw up for the remainder of the ride.  Needless to say, I will NOT be taking the ferry again...  When we got off the ferry port, we were bombarded with 50 taxi drivers trying to pull us into their cabs and yelling Swahili at us.  We tried to escape them but I still felt sick and didn't feel like walking, so we agreed to have one of the drivers take us to the bus station.  Well at first, he was only going to charge 10,000 tsh (about $6) which was fine, but when we got to our destination he demanded 30,000.. and we said no, we agreed on 10,000 but he would not leave us alone until we gave him the money.  Everyone just wants money from us here!!  And when you refuse they can get kind of scary... It isn't like that in the village though, just in the bigger towns.  To get from Dar to Arusha, the best way is to take a bus.  We knew the state of buses in Africa is less than acceptable, so we even paid 10,000 extra shillings to get the ‘luxury’ bus.  Let me tell you what luxury is here in Africa.  Hot air blowing on us that was supposed to be air conditioning, absolutely no room between seats so I had to fold my legs in half and push them against the seat in front of me while a metal bar stuck into my shins the whole ride, BLARING African Christian music in Swahili that was so loud Scott couldn't hear me in the next seat over, and stale snacks for sale that were twice as much as the store.  This was how we got to Arusha, almost 11 hours later.  But I guess its part of the experience!  Once in Arusha, the main way to get around was by dala dala (mini bus) or by piki piki (motorbike).  The dala dalas, as we knew from last summer, are the cheapest way to get around but are so crowded, you are likely to have someone’s butt in your face while you are smashed between multiple people's armpits (and they don't wear deodorant here) and five people are hanging out of the door.  Personal space is definitely not a concept in Africa. The dala dala  also stops every 3 minutes to let someone on or off so everyone has to pile out to let one person off and somehow find a way to let six more people in.  After awhile, this got exhausting so the last few days we used piki pikis which can be quite dangerous but are way more fun and comfortable.  They drive so fast and there aren’t many traffic laws in Africa, or any that I can see, but as long as I don’t open my eyes too often its fine. Man do I really miss driving my own car...

Piki piki from last summer

As for our time spent in Arusha…well we were supposed to be there for two weeks but after one week we were so ready to get back to the village.  First of all, it was very expensive paying for the hotel room, transportation, every meal, and every bottle of water.  Second of all, Arusha is way too busy and fast paced.  Last year it had seemed so rural compared to America, but compared to Berega it was like New York City.  Besides the fact that there’s way more people to stare and point at you, there are also more people trying to get money from you, either by begging or trying to sell you something, or even just following you around acting as a tour guide even though you never asked for one.  After they walk with you for awhile, they will ask for 50,000 shillings and you are like….um noooo.  But because you are mzungu, they will try to take advantage of you. I guess they have just learned that white people are ignorant and will them all their money.

Even though Arusha was expensive and exhausting, I am so very glad we went for two reasons.  The first is that I got to go to three meetings while I was there!  All my good friends will know how incredibly important that was for me… a month without meetings and fellowship had been incredibly difficult, especially while going through so many changes all at once.  My first meeting there was about 10 people, half of whom spoke English, so it was half English and half Swahili.  I did not even care when they were speaking another language, it was just such a relief to be in a room full of people I could relate to and who understood how I felt.  I cried the whole time, I felt so blessed to be in that room.  There were also two women who were so wonderful and friendly to me, and gave me their contact information so I wouldn’t feel so alone in Tanzania.  I also managed to buy some literature in Swahili so hopefully, I can start a meeting or class on alcoholism here in the village.  Even just for educational purposes, I think it could be really beneficial.  Not just for them, but for me too!  I have to keep up that service work! :) 

The sweetest girl ever, Veronica

The other reason I was really glad to go to Arusha is because I got to visit the orphanage I volunteered at last summer.  Those children are the reason I fell in love with Africa (and all my fellow IVHQ volunteers, I miss you guys!) and I could not wait to see them again!  I was so surprised when I got there, the kids didn’t look nearly as ill as they did last year, they had decent clothes on, even electricity had been installed and they had a tv!  I guess one year of  volunteers had done them a lot of good, I was so happy to see how well they were doing.  So I went to the orphanage every day of the week, and played with them, brought them toys and books, read them stories about Jesus and how much He loves them, and I just hugged and kissed them over and over.  The thing those children need more than anything in the world is just love and affection. (They miss you Hannah Ring!)  The kids especially loved Scott, he chased them and threw them over his shoulder, they used him like a jungle gym- he was so great with them.  My favorite little girl, Veronica, would not leave my side the whole time I was there and it took all the will power I had not to take her back to Berega with me.  She is the most beautiful, loving child I have ever had the privilege of knowing, but I know God is watching over her and the other children, taking care of them.  I am just thankful I got the chance to see them again!  I think I will go back over Christmas on our next break and bring them something special….

Me reading stories about Jesus to the children

They kept begging Scott over and over to throw them around

So another 10 hour excruciating bus ride to Morogoro, a two hour ride in the car with Abdallah, and we arrived safely back in the village of Berega Saturday night.  We were so glad to be home..well my home here in Africa.  And Liz, the other teacher at St. Mary’s, gets back this week too and I am so excited to meet her!   There will also be two more English women here who will be working in the hospital for 6 weeks and I am looking forward to meeting them as well… as for right now though, me and Scott are the only wazungu in the village, but I couldn't be happier to be here.  Oh yea, I forgot to talk about the orphanage in Berega again.... oh well, next time for sure!  That’s all for now, will write again soon!

They have the most amazing smiles in the world